Oct. 1 at 11:57pm
Last week, I bit off more than I could chew. It was like going to the All You Can Eat Chinese buffet
and then thinking you might still have some room for a Coney Island country omelette with saussage gravy. (The buffet is what I promised my kids if they’d let me translate Amor y Autoestima; the omelette is so dense that it has never been consumed in one sitting by anyone but my teenage son).
My subject: forming an accurate picture of the one true God, unclouded by human limitations. In a thousand words or less.
That was silly.
Rather than try to tie up every loose end, I’d like to address one in particular: the part where I said
You can only give what you possess—and we don’t possess ourselves, not fully. We can give time, gifts, affection—but our self isn’t fully ours to give.
But God’s is. He gives of Himself without stint, without reservation. To the extent we can receive Him, we’re united with Him—not just “in a relationship” with Him, but one with Him. He doesn’t have parts; therefore, He doesn’t give Himself partially.
To which Katie replied:
Didn't we learn in grad school that "self-possession" is almost the definition of personhood? Of course we don't possess ourselves absolutely, and a given individual can have weak or strong "self-possession", but it seems to me that when even mere mortal love truly, we're not just giving "stuff" (like time) or parts of ourselves, we're giving ourselves, really and truly. Aren't we?
This is especially true in marriage. I give myself; I receive him.
Well, as Rocco Buttiglione was once heard to say in epistemology class,
You are right, but I disagree.
That is, I don’t even really disagree, but I need to clarify.
We do truly possess ourselves, and thus are capable of giving ourselves—but with limitations such as:
God, on the other hand, possesses Himself, disposes of Himself, absolutely and definitively, in such a way that there is no room for anyone or anything to have dominion over Him. He doesn’t possess Himself just at this moment, or just when He’s free from external pressures, or just when He’s succeeding at resisting temptation. We human persons belong to ourselves in a way that distinguishes us from animals, but we also belong to Him. He simply belongs to Himself.
So yes: self-possession is central to our identity as persons. Life on earth is a battle precisely because we have to keep a grip on our personhood, our freedom, our self-possession, so as to be able to give ourselves in love to other persons and ultimately to God.
I think the reason marriage is so consistently used as an image and seen as a foretaste of union with God is that it doesn’t just bring about a “relationship”: it unites. The distinction is expressed memorably by Fr. Vincent Miceli in his booklet “Union with God: Living the Christ Life.”
“Do you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ?”
This question, posed to me while out on a walk...became a true moment of grace. My reply to this friendly evangelist was that in fact I did have a relationship but, adding remorsefully, “It is not a relationship with Jesus I want.” To her ever-growing alarm, I went on to tell her…“With Mother Mary and with you and with all the saints I want a relationship but with Jesus I want union. I desire something even more intimate than relationship. I do not want to be simply face to face with Jesus, or even side to side. I want his face to become my face, his heart to beat in perfect harmony with mine. With St. Paul, I want to be able to say that it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me (cf. Gal. 2:20). I want divine union.” She abruptly thanked me for our conversation and, obviously still a bit flummoxed, proceeded to hand me some tracts regarding providence and God’s plan for my life.
Well, there you go: one loose end addressed, ten new ones left hanging.
But then, that’s what comment boxes are for.